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To a remarkable extent, the view of "self as victim" has taken hold in OpenITforum.
I agree with that comment. I would suggest that this change coincides with the diminishing status of the employee - equivalent in the US workforce.
Since most of us here are working as some form of staff augmentation (really - just not mincing words) or employee equivalent, our fortunes have diminished with the lessening clout of the worker in the general workforce.
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up to about the age of 38. Past that age, or at about that time, people began to see me as less and less, instead of more and more.
To be blunt and honest, I have seen the same thing happening in my own career, and that age 38 is pretty close to when I started to observe the same thing happening. For me it was closer to age 42. That's about when the resistance to my being considered for meaty roles increased greatly, and projects I was offered more resembled a steaming plate of shit and doomed to failure, or, really productive things that I did for clients were warped into "it was just self evident drivel that he did, and we didn't have a college intern around to do it."
Less civil and more arrogant types will tell me and you that we slowed down on learning, or started to value our past laurels more than what we could do now, and that we deserved to fall behind.
I've observed kind of a self justifying recursiveness in the way that employers and many techies talk down or talk up some people. It's mostly perceptual - if one asserts "that old guy is washed up and a loser" then anything he says or does is tainted by the "flipped bozo bit". Solid achievements are often downplayed as something "any lame asshole" could do. Same with characterizing someone a superstar but in the opposite direction.
This has eaten at me quite a bit, as I have observed that perception in some clients and it's gotten extremely personalized and direct. It's very toxic stuff, if you have taken pride in your work.
This is one of several reasons why I made a conscious decision to leave IT. This industry literally doesn't deserve me, and the effect was eating at me to the extent that almost every facet of negotiation and collaboration with clients was feeling like a big confrontation.
On learning: I have probably increased my computer science specific knowledge at a much steeper gradient in the past 5 years than in any similar time frame in my past. Yet available opportunities seem to have dwindled in inverse correspondence.
Examples: In the past couple of years, I have created several public facing web sites. I have added several differnt types of complex real time image manipulation to a digital video application. I have developed a real time Internet speech transmission/reception application and successfully demonstrated. I also run my own Linux server, and last night, I upgraded the Linux distribution, remotely, from one Debian distribution to another. The move broke just about everything on my server (web, a CMS, email service) due to startup conflicts. I diagnosed and fixed EVERY problem independently in about 3 hours of work.
Plus I'm an accomplished C++, Win32 and Delphi geek.
I have large "reach". My skills resemble those that would require two or three separate staff people in most businesses.
But I CAN'T FIND A F*CKING JOB that I would be happy with. That doesn't make a bit of sense.
And that's another reason I left IT. When you put more of yourself than you ever imagined you would into the work and you get less out of it than you ever had before in your life, something is out of whack.
And I don't know what that "something" is. I do know that my attitude has degraded proportionately. That probably has shown to clients.